She began to tell me that she didn't feel like I had sufficient experience to fill the position [even though we had already discussed that detail in my interview]. Then, she said that since I am not a licensed counselor she would prefer me to work towards that [which was already agreed upon in my initial interview]. Excuses..... more excuses.....and lies is all that followed.
To say that I was furious is an understatement, I believe that my exact words to my husband were "I feel like I just got kicked in the face!" I haven't felt that angry in a long time. Even writing about this now brings tears to my eyes....but I honestly have to say [after a couple of days] although it was a great disappointment, momentarily all I feel is JOY! Don't ask me how that is possible...it's just something that God can work within us when we trust in Him. I had wanted this promotion so bad and I had everyone praying with me for it. Of course I was given advice to fight for it and go to another supervisor and complain, but I just didn't feel like that was the right thing to do. I just think that I need to let God handle this battle for me.
After the initial frustration wore off, I began to feel God's peace like no other. I literally feel like God has given me the weapons of
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this week in order to overcome that news and not want to quit my job! So, as I was talking to God about how confused and angry I was, I literally felt Him speak this scripture to me..... from Psalm 28:7 "The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him."
I just repeated it over and over again. Oh boy, does His word have the power to heal! This has been my go-to scripture for a while now. I know God uses it remind me that my life begins and ends with Him, and I am okay with that, even if it means that He is allowing me to be passed up for a promotion. See, my confidence is in Him, so I trust Him to open & close the doors He sees fit, in order to allow my life to surrender to His will and that is all that I need to know.
I just want to encourage you to find what you need in God's word....it truly is powerful!
My little lesson for this week has been to rejoice in the Lord no matter how life might push me around.
Philippians 4:4 Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!
*This scripture is so interesting to me because here Paul is really trying to make a point. Everything in scripture should be regarded as highly important, so first Paul says to rejoice in the Lord always! Ok, I get that [noted, point taken]....but then he says "I will say it again" which means he is really trying to get us to understand that REJOICING is really important! It's almost like he is saying, "Umm, just in case you didn't catch that the first time...you need to rejoice." It's a weapon that we have as Christ followers.
Rejoicing can literally change the outcome, perception, or views of life's situations, etc. So I tell you today......there is nothing that a little rejoicing in the Lord can't fix.
This week God is molding my faith I can feel it.
Today is for REJOICING!
